another week

I had two bad days at the first of the week (Sunday and Monday) my hair was awful and I wasn’t feeling the best about myself which got me read, more than once, that didn’t help things. By Monday night I was telling myself I should just give up and that made me want to die. But about 3 million tears latter, a good talk and a bunch of makeup and I was feeling a little better. I’ve been out by myself the last two days, I walked to the birdcage shopping center yesterday and to the Sunrise village shopping center today but I wish I had a friend to go with me. I like to talk about the stuff in the shops which is kind of hard to do when you’re alone! I talk to myself sometimes ;) because I’m a little bit crazy. Not like totally nuts or anything, just enough to be fun. I love to hang out with Raven when I can but he works late almost every day so I honestly don’t get to see him much. He keeps telling me we are both trans and we’ll get along OK but that really doesn’t mean anything. I know other tg’s I like and I know some I can’t stand! I am willing to give her a chance yes there are somethings I do not like about her just from what I’ve been told. I haven’t actually met her yet, she has been helping her sister or something. I’m not really sure. I’m pretty easy to get along with and I always try to give people a chance. Anyway, I don’t know how well we will get along. Hopefully good but who knows. We are very different from one another! I’m going to hope for the best though because I could really use someone to buddy around with some times lol.
I took a few new pictures the other day and I thought I’d post at least one. I am a redhead now; let me know what you think.
Love ya! Take care
Krissy

Travel day

Oct. 7th I finally left for Ca. I got to Springfield about 1:55pm which was three hours early. I’m actually glad I was so early because I had no idea what I was doing or where I was going. After I got through security I found my flight and waited to board. I had never flown before so I was very nervous. To my surprise I enjoyed it quite a lot…. At least at first  I liked the first flight when I got to sit by the window. I had to wait about an hour when I switched flights in Memphis TN. then we sat on the plane for over 20 minutes waiting to take off. On this one I sat in between an older man who slept the whole way and an old lady. About 2 hours later we landed in St.Paul MN. By this time I was starting to get tired of airplanes, the seats are too close together and too small. My legs hurt, my ass hurt, and I was getting a head ach. I was very very happy to land. After we unloaded I walk around for a few minutes trying to make my legs feel better and I was look for a place to eat in the terminal, believe it or not almost every place in there was closed by 10:00pm. OK so waiting for the flight to Sacramento didn’t take long about 25 minutes, nothing to it. I boarded the plane found my seat, and for a while I thought I was going to get to sit there alone :D but no! I was by an old man with terrible breath. After about three hours in the air I wanted off that plane so bad! I would have given almost anything to be on the ground again! We landed in Sacramento around 12:30am and I didn’t get to my friend’s apartment and in bed until around 3:00am. I felt great when I got up this morning but I still need rest because by 2:30 today I felt so sleepy again. Anyway I am here and I am loving it so far. I’ve got to go because I have things to do but I wanted to let the two or three people who read my blog know I am still alive.
Take care, love ya!
Krissy

Still here ;)

I haven't wrote anything in so long I'm not sure I remember how... My life is pretty much as boring as it's ever been so I've had absolutely nothing to write about. My transition has been moving along fairly well, I have real boobs now :D and a bigger booty LOL!

I got pulled over tonight while I was out, and I still haven't got my name changed on my drivers license so I got a couple weird looks for the cop. I have dealt with cashiers, bank tellers, ect. but I have never been pulled over until tonight. A little embarrassing but not as bad as I had thought it might be.

latter
Krissy

happy birthday to me!

I wonder if people know when they write shit about there "friends" on these things that chances are that person is going to see it? I wish I could be stone cold emotionally and have no feelings for anyone! I find that very hard to do but it's getting easier all the time. Everytime my heart gets steped on it closes me off a litte more. You ever think you know someone but find out latter you were totally wrong? It hurts when you have to find out whats really going onwith someone whosuposedly trusts youand tells you everything from another person. It's like oh wow thanks for telling me!Nice to know you care enough to fill me in on these things!I love you but not that much! I'm your friend when I have time to be. Oh well, I feel like I've been lied to but whatever. I don't care anymore

june 21

Uugggg... I hate summer! I feel like I've done nothing but sweat for
the last week and I don't think it's going to get any better for a
while. What makes it even worse is the humidity, which has been around
86% if you've been here you know what I'm talking about, that nasty
wet sticky feeling. I guess it's good if you like yucky hair, runny
makeup, and never quite feeling clean!

I ran across the S.A.G.E. test which is almost identical to GOTO
I had done it long time ago. Anyway, it gave me something to do for a
while.

S.A.G.E. Test Results
Your Raw Score is: 925, which indicates that overall you are Feminine

Your appearance is Androgynous

Your brain processes are mostly that of a Female person.

You appear to socialize in a very feminine manner.

You believe you have serious conflicts about your gender identity.

You indicated your were born Male.

ANALYSIS:
Male to Female Transsexual, either post-operative or in transition
NOTES:

Your answers indicate you have altered your physical appearance to
look like the opposite sex.
Your Answers indicate your psychological state has likely prevailed
since you were quite young.

OK, so I didn't learn anything I didn't already know. Here's the link
if you'd like to take the test.
http://www.hemingways.org/GIDinfo/sage/index.htm

june 9th

My new hormones arived yesterday, it's a different brand than I was taking so the dose is a little different. Anyway, the crazy moodiness could possibly return!

I've already been a little depressed this week, it seems like none of my friends have been online at night so I haven't had anyone to chat with. Which totally sucks! I like to think I'd be fine alone but honestly I don't think I would.

OK, well I guess that's about it for now. I have things I could write about but it's kind of personal. My best friend now has a new girlfriend and he would like me to get along with her but I'm having a hard time doing so. It would help if I didn't feel the way I do about him. We haven't talk as much lately because he's spending all his time with her. I think he can tell I'm upset and sometimes I think he quite enjoys it (bastard!) and other times I think he worries about me and so he lies about what he's doing to spare my feelings. Oh well, I know I'll never be good enough for anyone to love me. I guess I should just forget about it and move on.

Talk to ya latter!

Alone

I drew this today while it was raining. I've been a little lonely the last couple of days. My bf has gone out of town for the weekend and we normally talk on the phone everynight so lastnight and to night I've had nothing to do. Oh well